2/20/2025
There are so many things that have changed since the last time I wrote on here. Bad things have happened. Good things too, but they were brief. Very brief.
I don't know if I want to or will write about what happened in New Zealand. Or what happened before I went. But yes, I ended up going after all. And for now, I don't want to relive those memories.
Part of me wants to write about everything that happened after I came back, but I just can't bring myself to be in that space again.
Life is just bad, mostly. That's just how it is.
Other things; I no longer identify as transgender or nonbinary. Which was weird to say for a while, because I have identified that way since 2012. But I realized a lot of things about myself... about the concept of gender. And how I don't want to participate in gender. And I feel more secure in this realization.
Our dog died recently. I miss her a lot.
